Mental and emotional problems?

I have many problems. It all started a few weeks ago. I have been very depressed and sucidal. For a week I was cutting myself every day to relieve the emotional pain. I wanted to die all the time. I wrote many poems about dieing and all morbid stuff. I just stopped caring about life and I don't have the energy to do things like I used to. My mom says my depression is from all the acne medication I took (and there's alot). I talked to my counselor friday and he said that I should go the hospital and get some help. So I went and it was the worst experience of my life. So saturday (the next day) I was taken to a mental hospital (which was so creepy, don't ever go to one!). And I was talked too. And they let me go home on the condition that if I cut myself I have to go the hospital, which I don't want so I won't cut myself. So we got home and my mom cleaned my room and took away everything that I could hurt myself. So I got into a fit of rage (I have many anger problems) and treated her like crap. I strangled myself with my pants(stupid, yes, I know) and if my mom hadn't come in, in two minutes I would have been dead. So now I have to get therapy. Everyone is worried about my mental health and me and they don't want me to harm myself anymore. I don't want to cut myself or die but life is so hard right now. My friends are helping me and so is my family. I'm getting therapy in a few days and am not too happy about it. I know, I wrote alot, and I feel so stupid expressing myself on here but I just want to ask you guys what do you think of all this. If you could maybe give me some other ways to cope right now, I would be so grateful. So thanks. Also I am 14 years old and everybody is telling me not to waste my life by commiting suicide.